Me in the Eyes of Other People Student Number: 1048520 Name: 黄晓娟 Linda

黄晓娟 写道:I was born in 1961 when King Yong started writing his full-length martial novel The Heaven Sword and Dragon Buster. I should have been in my fifties up till now yet I perpetually live in the book and the hearts of King’s readers at the best time of my life. Never have I come to the real world in fresh yet never far away from it. I am the heroine in King’s masterpiece and I named myself Zhao Min.
How many actresses become prestigious owing to playing the role of me on the screen! I’m not jealous of them with abhor. On the contrary, I take pride in accomplishing their career and I want to express my sincere acknowledgements for their excellent performance, which introduced me to a multitude of people from different social levels.
Mr. King depicted me as one of the most attractive and controversial characters in all his works. For many of the people who have read the novel or watched the film or soap operas, they apprise me as a wise and full of stratagems, dare-to-love-and-hate young lady; however, those who stricture on what I have done to my country, my people and my family are not the minority.
Born in a Mongolian aristocratic family and as the only daughter of a king who wins confidence of the emperor, I inevitably have the responsibility to suppress the rebels for the emperor. At the age of innocence (I was about 17 at that time) I bore a burden which was not in proportion to my age. My people gave praise to my beauty and perspicacity. “The first beauty of Mongolia and of China”, that’s what they called me. Those adoring eyes once gave me an illusion of acting high-and-mighty until I met the only man I love in my life, Zhang Wuji, the leader of the rebels. Victories in rapid succession, however, brought me the notorious reputation of being malicious and treacherous among Zhang and his followers. And his distrust of me tore my heart into pieces!
Nothing is as cruel and dangerous as falling in love with your enemy. I was thrown into a dilemma and at length I abandoned my career, my family, my father and my brother who love me without reservation, which is the most sky-rocking and earth-shaking thing I have ever done. Have I ever regretted? Well, it is a long story. Probably that’s why readers admire me because of my courage to discard my country, wealth and rank only to pursue the true love in life. At the same time, I am condemned severely for my betrayal to the country and my beloved father and brother. Of the national interest and personal emotions, truly I chose the latter yet I have never done anything harmful to my country. To be exact, I have not applied my military conducting competence and the intelligence I’ve obtained to help Zhang in order to overthrow the Yuan government. In this sense, the so-called betrayal is sheer nonsense. I don’t repent my choice for I realize that the Yuan regime has lost the sympathy and support of the majority. Even if I had eliminated the rebels of Mingjiao successfully, there would be tremendous number of rebels waiting for me to wipe out. I am tired of that and all I long for is to find the one I love and spend the rest of my life with him, getting away from the chaos and disputes. This dream may seem commonplace but it is practical for me.
I don’t care about what others think about me, all I am concerned about is that whether Zhang loves me and our future. As for the fans’ comparisons between me and Zhou Zhiruo, lei it go. I am just what I am: Zhao Min, a girl as beautiful and glamorous as roses.