Me in the Eyes of Other People

Me in the Eyes of Other People
So often that we showed our eagerness to know other's opinion towards us and then had a close scrutiny on us whether we had lived up to their expectations. Whenever I had a check on myself, I found that I usually brought people down.
I could have upset my parents since the very beginning. For I was expected to be a boy before I was born. However, I came to this world with a female gender . Frankly ,I hoped that they could have smiled it away. During my childhood, they wanted me to be quite and obedient. To their disappointment, I was born with naughtiness and restlessness which made them utterly exhausted. They tried to persuade me to choose a university near home while I went to anther province with determination, only to find out that homesick was so hard to go through. I was antagonistic against my sister. She attempted to convince me about her advice. I, on the contrary, was stubborn enough to insist in my way and finally proved that she was right. I was not popular with my brother, either. Because of the latest thing he had done or left undone, I tended to be the first "big sister"to stand up and judge.
My teachers might have a relatively good comment on me based on my not-that-annoying behaviors. On the other hand, chances were that I could fall asleep in class when we were expected to concentrate on the teacher's lecture. I sometimes acted so actively that might annoy my teacher, sometimes so silently that could upset the teacher when he/she really wanted something from me.
I was not fond of contending. Therefore, when my friends ignited a debate while I tried to appease both sides,they might think that I was too moderate to have a definite opinion of my own. I was not so obsessed with super icons, and when they flooded me with the latest box news I could hardly evoke my interest. As a result, they could regard me without sense of humor. But deep in my heart, I hoped there was time when I could satisfy them, time when they complained about their sorrow and they knew I was there,listening; time when they were misunderstood and saw me in my eyes and I could give them trust and encouragement. That must be what I felt proud of.
It's hard to live up to other's expectations but we could find a way to compensate:I tasted the difficulty of life and endeavored to be my parents' worthy child;I knew there must be a cause and effect in one event so I placed myself in other's position to think. Wearing a smile on my face, I greeted every morning with enthusiasm. And with the same enthusiasm I tried to bring happiness and satisfaction to my relatives and friends,because I was happy and satisfactory whenever they were.

内容上看，文章的主题比较明确，基调和论述都做得不错，里面我最喜欢的一句话是To their disappointment, I was born with naughtiness and restlessness which made them utterly exhausted. 语言上来看，词汇使用比较丰富，能熟练使用长难句，文中的长短句搭配合理，句式变化多样，希望继续努力。但还是有一些语法和表达上的错误，如convince me about her advice (convince的用法一般是convince sb of sth或者convince sb that ...)，I tended to be the first “big sister ”to stand up and judge.(有点中式了，可以说turn a judgemental eye on him.)

谢谢老师，我会改进。